Thoughts of Sometimes

Sometimes i really feel how scary i am
That i could still look the same right infront of someone i don't really like
I could still give that person a chance and look for his/her good points out
Sometimes i really wonder about myself
How come i can be cool infront
And be scolding inside my heart
Sometimes i don't understand
Why i could be calm when people are actually talking bad about myself
And i could be laughing right inside my heart
Sometimes i ponder
How i could be laughing how stupid i am
And how clever people are when they aren't
Sometimes i think
People are just acting infront of everyone
Wearing a mask around each and everyone
Frequently i think
Many people are not true
And pure heart is a rare gem

I really think i will go mad someday
But the day is not near yet
Please let me see no more of these nonsenses
I don't want to be polluted