Maybe it's not meant to be.

I'm not myself at all.

I just feel so out of place, like all of a sudden.

Maybe it is time I left this group.

I know I can be very hard to understand and irritating.

And most of the times I don't react to things but deep down, I'm trying not to over react.

I don't know what or how I should do to salvage this relation, I feel that its going to slip off.

But I know I can't ask for something that doesn't belong to me right from the start.

I just hope that it's me that is over-thinking.

Just what happened over these 10 years that changed me into someone so different than the one who was always talkative and noisy?

What did I do to myself?

Am I depressed?

I have no answers and I think that might be why I am still wondering right now.

Change is inevitable but still, this is kind of unbearable at times.

It just makes you feel so lonely and sad that the people around you are talking amongst themselves and not talking openly.

Maybe it's just me being petty and thinking too much.

And I hope that is because I don't want to lose these friends.

We''ve been through almost 2 years with so much things going on.

Maybe it's just not strong enough that when someone else comes in, it just breaks.

I shall just leave it as it is, what is meant to be, will be.